If walls could talk...

they would probably say the reason my 13 month old is spoiled is because I am.  Spoiled, blessed, lucky...whatever adjective you used to describe the life that has so much or too much.  Claire is passed out right now.  I've laid her down on the couch beside me, taken off her socks and cut her toe nails and polished them.  She screams bloody murder when you touch her hands, feet, ears, eyes...anything.  She doesn't like you to touch her, except she gives sweet kisses and hugs.  I haven't put her to bed yet because I just want to look at her and love her.

I spent about 45 minutes today at Paula Manship YMCA ballpark with her walking up and down four steps (about 1ft 1/2 apart from each other).  We would walk up and then turn around and walk down. Repeat, repeat, and repeat.  One day I'll beg her to do that with me.  One day I hope she'll do the same with me, when I'm old that is.

 
Mother of the year here forgot to load on up with sunscreen...I'll remember next time. The best part of going to Alec's game today was watching his team lose by 1 run at the very end and see him walk/run off the field with a smile so big you would think he won the World Series.  He is just so happy and feels so lucky to be playing at all he doesn't care about winning and losing.  WOW, to have that attitude at age 9 when you are just starting to learn what a true competitive spirit is.  Claire was walking around babbling and "talking" to people - just like her mother does.  Michele mentioned today that Alec is a lot like me.   Love that kid.  He's got a precious little personality.  Hope he stays that sweet.  Wish I could/had the time to see he and Aidan more often.  Aidan is going to be taller than me very soon, yes it's not that difficult but it is happening.  Hell, Claire will be too, she is growing so fast.  I know that gets said a lot, just as much as "are you ready for #2?"

Are you ever ready? Probably not, didn't think I was ready for number one.  In fact I was more shocked and scared than Carey was.  He is not here.  He hasn't even seen Claire today.  He saw her long enough to kiss her before he left for work and when he got home he saw her long enough to say Hi and he went to Chad's.  Frustrating yes, I want nothing more than to spend every waking moment with Claire but if Carey was there too that would be the best moments of my life.  The two people I love most in the world and to have them together....A-MAZING.

On a side note, my email has been acting up and I spent like 30 minutes on the phone with a Cox representative who said everything was ok on there side and said it was a Mac issue.  Well I didn't go to the Apple store today b/c my email had started working again.  Carey's email is working just fine so it can't be a Mac issue, well it could be but we don't think it is.  I guess I need to try to go there tomorrow after the 14 birthday parties and the Easter Egg hunt we have tomorrow.  :)

Guess I need to put her to bed.  Love that kid.  Can't wait to see Carey - even though we were kind of grumpy when he left or before he left.