Rest in Peace Brandi

Brandi Chaney was the bar tender at Bink's, when Carey and I first started dating.  She was a doll, I liked her.  I wouldn't say I got to know her well, but I knew her.  She friend requested me on facebook, we chatted occasionally when she was in town (after she moved to Tennessee with her boyfriend Rhett). Regardless of the details her life ended too soon.  Started with what they thought, I believe, was ovarian cancer, then a brain tumor and down hill after that.   I'm so sad for her family, but she was suffering and hurting here on earth and now, well  there is no more suffering! AMEN.

Yesterday went downhill after I wrote that.  We went to Chad's for dinner, I rested on the couch...just as the Lord said - on the Sabbath we shall rest. We rested...so much so that the storm kept Pedro up all night and I didn't sleep.  It was like I was up all night with a cranky baby.  I felt like poop today.

Finally got a chance to read Brandi's Caring Bridge site.  Makes me sad, makes me cry, makes me feel selfish.  Gives the title of this blog an entirely different meaning.  Did I spend this one day doing the things that are important?  Granted I have done the "required" daily devotion in a few days, but today I'm re-thinking my "life" aka the day.  I worked late today and ate at work, so when I got home I was already an hour behind schedule...if there was one.  It's 9:49 and I've spent only a few minutes with Carey who is already in bed.  I did get on the treadmill while I caught up on some DVRd TV shows, to save spending even more time away from Carey.  I truly cherish every minute I get to be with him even if we sit silently doing our own things in the same room.

It's the season finale of the stupid Bachelor...which for whatever reason I cannot get enough of.  I don't think I ever will.  I wish I could...I'm sure there are more important things to do with my time.  I need to see my nephews...I miss them.  There isn't enough time in the day to do everything I want to.  Just another day of rambling on...I love Carey.  I think I'll go just be with him.  :)  I'll say some extra prayers for Brandi's family but I know they will be comforted.  God has called one of His children home, He will be there for Brandi's family, I know that.  I hope they do too, I can't imagine what they are going through.  I can't even begin to imagine, as I'm not a mother.  I can't imagine losing my brother or my father or anything.  I also pray for Shawn and Sherri Campanile.  I can't imagine losing my dad suddenly either.  I am glad I got to spend some time with Dad, Maw Maw and Mom.  I don't want to even think about what I'll do when they are gone.