I have to go back to yesterday's verse - "For I know my offense; my sin is always before me. Psalm 51:5 That one is a big one. It's not enough to carry our sin around with us and contemplate the heaviness that it brings to our life, but then we have to read about it and be reminded that every day that we don't confess it to the Lord, it brings us farther away from him. I don't like to admit my faults, to admit that I'm wrong. I already know and am reminded constantly that I'm not any where close to perfect, but it still hurts to admit that I'm weak and small. Thankfully the Lord forgave me a long time ago. I find comfort in knowing that He always takes me back. As a human being I sometimes wonder if we take advantage of our Lord. Are we tempted to sin b/c we know He will forgive us? or is that what it really is to be human? To be aware of our mistakes? I guess we'll keep asking ourselves these questions. When we sin, we need to be specific about it, when we ask to be forgiven. Just as I've always thought that we should be specific in our prayer as well. God knows our heart and our sin, but it always helps to be specific when we ask for things.
The run went well today, we did a partner PR today: 6.2 miles in 1:04:19, Trey beat me b/c he sprinted to the end....his legs are longer. That's my story and I'm sticking to it. He's nervous about the race next week. I'm debating about whether or not I want to go next weekend and run the Rock n Roll. I mentally am not ready, but I want to, I need to...be there for Trey. I know he can do it. He's run far better than I had before my first half marathon. He's going to great. My fear at this point is not that he won't finish or I won't finish, but my fear is that I'll hold him back instead of pushing him. At least I have 7 days to think about it.... I think I can, I think I can.
Now, I know I seem very scattered today, but today's devotion is about spiritual medicine. It's the most important kind of medicine, in my opinion. I will forever live knowing that Sunday Mass is the medicine that I need weekly, to help me realize what I was blessed with the week before and to ask for those things I mentioned above as well as to get me through the week to come. I know I can't do it alone, that I need God, I need that spiritual medicine which is Sundays, prayer and Mass. It's why I guess Chad Kling calls me the church nazi. I'm not missing Sunday Mass.
Isaiah 58 is where God reminds us that the Sabbath is a delight and that we need the day off. That Lord is good isn't He?
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